mademoiselle
Melissa. Melly. Mel.
I'd like to think that I have some positive qualities, but my shortcomings are numerous. I'd like to think that I'm unique, but I'm no more special than a single grain of sand on the beach. I strive to become a clinical psychologist and specialize in neuropsychology to help individuals cope with the burdens of mental dysfunction, but who knows whether I suffer the same fate? When in despair, I sit down on my piano and play a little tune, but chords come out wrong and crescendos deafen ears. And as I'm walking along a road and I see something beautiful I attempt to capture its beauty, but my photograph becomes a blur. Psychologist? Pianist? Photographer? No, I am merely just another dreamer.
From this point onwards, I have decided to prioritize myself first. If someone else can’t show me what happiness is, I will do it myself.
I don’t know what I am doing anymore. I live in a life full of transient happiness. I feel a foreshortened sense of future.. It’s so hard. Everything is so hard… Working 40 hour work weeks and juggling a full time student schedule. I’m slowly dying, but I don’t want to stop. At this point I don’t really care anymore. Everyone says, “CONGRATS EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH,” or “Damn working so much and still made Dean’s honors?” So fucking what? I’m stuck in a pit of sadness and I’m drowning in misery. Something is wrong with me. Or maybe, I just want to go home..
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Sometimes I can’t help it.. I can’t help but to cry because I abandoned everyone else that truly cared for me for someone who no longer does.
Was having a shitty day until an awesome friend of mine surprised me with these at work~
Laduree macarons + Hello Kitty = Happy MelMel
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHERI! <3 May you have an absolutely lovely day. I apologize that Sara and I won’t be able to spend it to you there physically, but we will always be there with you in spirit. Love and support.
Lovely hand drawn card from Miss Joann. Although my birthday was nearly 2.5 months ago, 謝謝~ 很可愛 ♥ You drew everything I adore! KEEP CALM AND DREAM ON, indeed. ^___^
Mademoiselle Chanel <3
More for my collection, less in my wallet. Ah, Dior addict indeed.
because these flowers are beautiful. LALALA HI, THANKS TOMMY CHENG <3
My poopy Tommy bought me an overpriced “mango vanilla cream cake”
Second birthday together! Although I got to *actually* spend it with you in Hawaii, on our first ever vacation together! Awesomesauce. Let there be many, many, many more to come, right? I know I probably didn’t show it sentimentally, but.. I appreciate everything you do for me, even the tiniest gestures. (KEKE YOU AREN’T GOING TO READ THIS SO I’M JUST RAMBLING TO MYSELF, BUT.. ai ni ai ni ai ni~) <3
To: The lovely people that were extra lovely, thank you very much for the sweet gifts. <3
ps (the 8por who gave me the card) i love it so much it’s so adorable. ima get you a cuter one next year and your handwriting is so messy..
Dior Holiday Lip Palette from Jessica. It’s perrrrrrrfect. Arigatougozaimashita!
Dior Holiday Eye Palette from Sheri. I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU~ J’adore!
Went to a teahouse that’s Alice in Wonderland inspired called “Alice’s Tea Cups.”
“Let’s go get each other matching fragrances as part of our Christmas presents.”
